Entry: 06102007
Somewhat another day went by without a doubt with the previous few days going by like nothing but dashing gust.
Called her many times and made her pissed which I just realized after reading her blog.
Sad me.
I broke down only to be cooled down and chilled by one of my old BMT cabin mate Jeremy Soh.
Man that was the hardest night ever.
And to find out my 1st song IC and good friend to be her friend is kind of a old story, since I knew that long ago, acting blur all the while.
And she too acting like it.
But I didn’t care anyway.
Because I like her that’s why I can’t be ‘honest’ in many sense.
Just a few messages and she got pissed off at me.
Kind of a heart break to me.
I was down.
And I do need someone to talk to.
I see it’s my wrong.
But still something like that said is kind of a huge, huge, huge sadness in my mind.
I can’t think much.
Since I’ve gotten a defaulter parade on Saturday 1430hr and weekends on Duty watch. Fucked up.
I’ve got so many thoughts on my mind.
Happy to see her cute little message saying she’ll spend time with me after her exams.
Now it’s a cold period.
Most probably girls aren’t as good as they used to be.
Yeah, it’s an emo blog.
But it’s somewhat my personal space so mind you.
I only write out what I have in mind at that timeslot and at that period of thinking and emotions I’m having.
I want to try to call her again and again, but hung up only a few seconds after, just to be afraid of being ignored by her more.
I can’t understand what I’m doing anymore.
Anyways, I’ll see to my own feelings after today.
Later.
(This blog is written based on personal modification)
If you’re a girl, I don’t mind.
If you’re calling to teach me, I don’t mind.
JUST FUCKING DON’T KEEP SMS-ING ME AND CALLING ME THINGS LIKE ‘You sleep so early?’ You know I’m talking about you. How many times must I tell you I’m having exams and I don’t have time to entertain you!
You pissed me off real badly last time when you called EVERYDAY and recently you pissed me off cause you refused to hang up the phone when I said I wanted to study.
YESTERDAY you pissed me off with the repeated missed calls and sms-es.
I can be tolerant but there’s a limit to everything. I’m not obliged to fix my schedule to your wants alright?
When she says fuck, it means all over.
